I remember my sister who passed a way a few years ago.
It is because of someone I know. That night, i didn't know what
to do or what I felt. I remember the time when my brother in
law told me that my sister passed away. It really hurts because
she's not only my sister, but also she's a mother or best friend to me.
When I received the text from my brother in law, I want to go to the
hospital where she is, but I can't. I didn't want to see her like that, and
I don't know what I'll do. This hurts too much, I cried so hard that night
and I talked to her in my mind and in my heart.
The pain I've felt that night, up until now I can still feel it. It hurts too much
because i didn't know why she's gone too early. I told myself, "Maybe my sister
don't want me there when she passed away, because she don't want to see me like that." (thinking I might do something crazy).
I always talk to her and I wished she will tell me why she left or how did she die?
I hope tears could build a stairway and memory lane. No matter how many years passed, we will always remember the feeling of losing a loved one, it's like a major operation. A part of us is removed and we have a scar for the rest of our lives. As years go by, we learned to manage. There are things to do, people to care for, and tasks that call for full attention. But the pain is always there not far below the surface.